Sunday, February 22, 2015

NEW ENGLAND 2015: a win try’s tale...continued with the snow melting away, our woes as well.

A thawing on this sunny New England day.

A thawing of the snow on this sunny day in Leominster, MA and I took a walk around and around and it felt really good to be outside and to breathe of the fresh, cold air.

I have many demons that I am struggling with and no support really. I am grateful for when I am able to get outside and to simply breathe and take a walk. I am grateful for this apartment, although we've incurred many debts. I am grateful for my life, what little that I do and continue to do.

I am grateful for the one that provides shelter, warmth, and food for me. He sees not of the demons and he does not know how else to help me; but I need to help myself and him. How to rid of these demons? I thought that if I gave up blogging and of the Internet than they would minimize and disappear all together because I believe that my demons stem from my activities on the Internet and the fact that I am not employed and I cannot pay what I owe in student loans, credit cards etc.

These demons come in the form of collectors who phone repeatedly at times leaving messages for another and yet it is our number they phone. At times the demons are in my in-box or spam mail and in regular postal mailings.

I know that I cannot fend off demons with no income because this is what makes them stronger the fact that I have no income or means for doing things; simple, daily activities like paying a loan, a debt. I am simply unable to and this somehow makes me a target for these demons.

I have not posted as yet this month; I actually want to not do this anymore. As I walked today, I tried to remember why I became a blogger? Why do damage to myself, my character because I am not trusted and the few who may view of the things I write play upon the words and act them out around me; so what I am to do?

Today, I took a walk and it felt good. I find myself here trying to explain of this by saying that I am grateful for what I have and what little I do to continue to have.


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Thursday, January 22, 2015

NEW ENGLAND 2015: a win try’s tale—pond’s thawing, yet hockey players amidst the pond.

I see before me a pond seeming to be thawing and yet hockey sticks and players were on the icy pond…wow.

I was at home all day long doing of some house chores as well as fighting demons that pick at me for being in doors through out the day; the guilt of what I do all day long, weighing upon me, when I am not looking for employment. Anyhow, I did venture outside to take out the trash and I found the weather to be pleasantly warm and as I peered out at the pond, I thought to myself; how it is thawing of sort; yet as I gaze across the pond, I noticed of some young persons on the ice, further I look, I saw they were playing hockey for there was a net as well for this. Wow, I grab at my camera and took some photos.

I had made mention of a systematic way of looking at things; that is to see what is not there; what is missing but these thoughts are mine own, the world is too busy to take notice of what isn't there.

Speaking of canvases, I received from QuestRoyal Fine Art, LLC ( some print images that I wish to share for they are a wonder all of their own…Awe!


de-Haas Treacherous Seas

 Birchfield Glory to God

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Saturday, January 17, 2015

NEW ENGLAND 2015: A visit to the Leominster Historical Society.

I am learning more about the town Leominster, MA

I found out that there is a historical society here in Leominster and today was my day for locating this society and to take a tour of the place. I did get lost because I took a wrong turn to reach the historical society and after asking a passer-by, I was able to make my way to their front door.

The building looked dark as if no one was in. I tried the door and it was locked but I noticed a sign that read to ring the bell. I did once and seeming to not get a reply, I started to walk away but then an older gentleman opened the door and let me in. I asked if they were open for a tour and I was told yes. I explained that I am new to Leominster and wanted to tour the house and see what richness it held.

The house, held indeed some finest in rich and humble history of an earlier time.

About the Society
The non-profit Leominster Historical Society has served the city of Leominster since 1906, upholding the mission of its founders to preserve, protect and promote the community’s history.  The Society is located in the historic 1870 Field School building on School Street, the school was named in honor of longtime school member Caleb C. Field, M. D.  The society saved the building when they acquired it in 1971. This acquirement opened the building to the public as a museum and meeting space. It is now listed on both the State and National Historic Registers as part of the Monument Square Historic District, and serves as a lasting example of the brick schoolhouse of the era.

The Collection
The Society museum houses more than 2,000 priceless artifacts, ranging from the pre-revolutionary War period to present day history. Highlight of the Society’s collections include:

**Collection of Revolutionary and Civil War letters and weapons

**Whitney’s carriages, toys, and games from the 19th and 20th centuries

**As pioneer of the Plastics Industry, they house early industry tools, molds, and original comb manufacturing implements, materials and historic comb collections.

I am happy that I was able to get a tour of this manse. Viewing of their treasures made it all seem worthwhile to be out on this very cold day.


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Saturday, January 10, 2015

NEW ENGLAND 2015: a win try’s tale, the frozen pond and where are the geese?

I see before me a frozen pond…no geese around for it is too cold perhaps.


This blanket of snow still covers the pond as I stand here gazing of it. Loveliness in white; I wonder who or what dictates colors? Where the word palette stems from? I mean who thought of colors, who first came up with the coloring system?

A systematic way for seeing things; to see what is not there, surely there is a notion for this as well.

The canvas is still clear blue skies reflected on the lake, only with a blanket of snow reflecting back were one to be gazing a yonder. Further and furthest to see only whiteness as this is another form of blindness; neither near to the sight nor far-farsightedness and not of the color of darkness but blinded by the light.

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Thursday, January 8, 2015

NEW ENGLAND 2015: The Commonwealth of Massachusetts has new -Governor.

Charles D. Baker 72nd Governor of Massachusetts inauguration was today. The television captured this event and I am sharing photos of this here.

Read more on our new Governor by visiting this Wikipedia webpage:

I went out briefly on this cold day to put out the trash. I did some laundry and for this I am grateful. I am trying to say that on my part, for today, I have not done anything to further myself along for finding employment. This is a real concern and fear that I live with; especially after having moved, which is a dream come true. Now my worry is for how long am I here for, since I continue to not be able to do for myself.

How to be all that you can be without the guilt for having fallen short of it all? It is a New Year, apprehensive I am and still having the time to set goals and to dream. Despite the sadness that I carry around like a veil never to be unveil.

There is light at the end of the tunnel, like the Governor’s Inauguration and there is bleakness for this hobbyist blogger.

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Wednesday, January 7, 2015

NEW ENGLAND 2015: a wintry’s tale.

Frost, frozen as in iciness

At times all that is needed is a soft blanket of snow to make things look new, aglow with beauty only to be found in nature’s own background. Bemoaning of the fresh frost because one must get out and scrape the car, to start the engines and be off to work or doing of chores out of doors.

The canvas is still clear blue skies reflected on the lake, only with a blanket of snow reflecting back were one to be gazing a yonder.


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Sunday, January 4, 2015

NEW ENGLAND 2015: a move to Leominster.

A bright and frosty day for this New Year.

It has been as mild as it has been cold of late and thus was how the old year ended. A crisp, bright and cold day; yet warm when out in the sun.

We moved to a new town and while at the library, I decided to find out more about Leominster and I found this lovely book titled: Combing through Leominster’s History. It is filled with facts and memories of timeless people and their lives of how they made the present city of Leominster a vibrant, warm and friendly place to live for more than 200 years.  Well, I don’t how long I will last here but it seems decent enough.

I continue to take photos when I am out of doors. It seems the thing to do and yet I feel guilty and silly for doing so. Why do I feel compelled to do this. I am sick and riddled with guilt and shame for not having employment and being able to care for myself is why.

What is to be said of Leominster, MA? The book used to learn of this town; Combing through Leominster’s History, looks at Leominster as it has grown, changed, and developed throughout the Twentieth century. The book tells a history, as a comb aligns, straightens, and arranges hair, so has this historian aligned, straightened, and arranged many of the strands of life in Leominster to present a view of the city.


One of the city’s icons is a Ms. Luann Hume who operates the Luann Hume gallery on Biscane Street. She also offers water-coloring lessons on Sundays for free at the Leominster Art Center & Gallery. I got a chance to visit the gallery and took the water-coloring class with several other artists. The class was full when I got there and I was able to find a chair and partake of the activity. I did my best with this floral-depicting of a lily pond or such.


I found that this experience was relaxing and I am grateful for having attended. I also got to stop in next door at The Art of Beads shop (

and viewed of their stocks and the many beads and tools they hold in there; they offer beading classes as well. Lovely!

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